"There are many days that I wish I didn't have to smile, but God gave me this smile for a reason, and that is to show that no matter how deep a valley may seem, or how long a storm rages on I still have so many blessings to smile for.... As easy as it is to be bitter and to claim my dad (or in my case our baby) as my own, he was never mine". This is taken from my cousin Brittany's blog-aka whats left of me. I love hear dearly and love reading her blog. So often, what she writes I feel myself. Like the quote above, I couldn't have said it better myself. I still have my days of struggle and think of the precious little gift that is now in heaven. I know the Lord has a plan... and I long for the day that we are blessed with another child. I have to tell myself daily that everything is in his control and his time. I have a verse that is posted on my fridge and I read it every time I open it... Delight yourself in the Lord, and wait patiently on Him. I am trying to just that!

On a different note, we have been enjoying this summer weather to the fullest! We have been swimming the last 4 days! We have a little kiddy pool in the back yard and we went to the pool on base too. We LOVE being outside and playing in water!! I don't have any pictures... keep forgetting to get my camera and by the time I think about it, I'm wet! :) I'll try to get some soon. Tonight we are going to a nice resteraunt for my birthday, and this weekend we are goint to the city with some friends for dinner and birthday shopping. Hope everyone is having a great week!