Back to Reality :(

We are home from FL. Things have been crazy busy ever since! Unpacking, laundry, getting groceries (we had nothing), school, and just trying to get back in our own routine!! We had a great time though, and we hated to come home :) We went to the Miami Seaquarium, the beach, a water park, did a little shopping, went to south beach, and just hung out with my sister Alicia and her hubby. Copeland did great - except one night - he woke up throwing up... and did off and of for about 3 hours. The next morning he was fine though and was begging to go play! Then he got a cold and was pretty out of if one day... but that didn't seem to slow him down. We loaded him up with Tylenol and hit the beach! The first day we were at the beach he kept saying mama snow... snow.. and I kept telling him it was sand, cute little guy :) They are so funny at this age. By the end of our trip Copeland was saying "home?" "bye bye?" I think he was ready to get home, but I'm pretty sure he enjoyed his aunite she-she and uncle matt (with the t's being silent!) Every morning since we have been home he has been asking for them.
Here are some pics.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend!
(there are quite a few pics, sorry. this is not even half of them!!)

This is the day Copey didn't feel very well from his cold... you can kinda see snot on his nose haha

not feeling well.. daddy doesn't look so good either lol


alicia and matt


easter sunday



at the beach!



at south beach


he loved the sand!





cheesing with his shades on :)


at the seaquarium











Untill next time! God Bless!!

I have thought about writing several times and just didn't really have anything to say. We haven't really done a whole lot lately. The weather has been cold or rainy, so we have just been stuck inside a lot! We went out to play for a little bit yesterday, but the wind was so bad we didn't last long. The day before we went shopping all day!! It was exhausting but fun. Beau's best friend Zane was here for a few days. He stopped in on his way to Cali. We love having company, and Beau enjoyed seeing his buddy. 

We are heading to FL next week and we are soo ready for that warm  sunshine!! Alicia, my sister, lives down there and we will be staying with her and her husband for a week. Can't wait! I should have lots of pics to post after that! :) I've kinda slacked on the pics lately. 

We are starting to plan for Copeland's 2nd birthday! (it's not till next month, but i get excited haha)  I cannot believe he is going to be 2. Where did the time go??? He is a crazy, all boy, boy... and we love every second of it! His new thing right now is to take all the couch cushions off and jump on the couch! I shouldn't let  him but it keeps him entertained while stuck inside and it's pretty funny too! We are hoping to get him a trampoline for his bday. Well this post is kind of all over the place, so I'll wrap it up. I have lots of projects and school work to get done before our vacation, so I'll post when we get back. 

God Bless!! :) 

It's been a while...

I didn't realize how long it had been since I had posted! We have been busy I guess.  I feel overloaded with school right now, and the last few days we have spent hours outside! It's wonderful and I love it. Today we were out for about 3 hours and two days ago we were out for about 2 hours and even got a little sun!! Being outside is just refreshing right now. I haven't posted since I got the call from the doctor -  like about two weeks ago- but all levels are back at 0, but we haven't decided if we are ready to start trying again. We were kinda thinking to wait till after I had at least 1 menstrual cycle, and that has not happened yet!!! It is so hard for us to just sit here and wait. We are praying about it so hopefully we will feel peace about it soon. I feel kinda like I have a rain cloud that follows me around sometimes. But like I said, getting out of the house and playing outside with Copeland and all the neighbor kids really helps keeps my mind of things. We have a lot of fun out there. Cope loves to go down the slide and swing. He has also discovered sidewalk chalk!! He is so darn cute!! I do not want to sound negative, because I have a ton to be thankful for, and I do thank the Lord everyday for all He has blessed us with. 

God Bess!! :) 

Snow

So we got like 3 or 4 inches of snow yesterday. This is not our first batch of snow this year, but it is the first time Copeland got to go out and play in it. He didn't know what to think at first. The snow was blowing in his face and he didn't like that, but once he got used to it, he loved it. He didn't want to go inside! 

our little snow bunny all bundled up!

Not much has been going on around here. We have just been hanging out. Beau is getting around better, but it is still a challenge for him to stand or walk for long periods of time.  

I started my second term of classes this week. I will graduate in Dec. of this year!! YAY So ready to be done! Once again I feel like all I do is homework. 

Yesterday was actually really nice here so Cope and I went for a walk and then we went to play at the playground twice!! We love being outside. We are so ready for spring. 

I go back for blood test again on Saturday - hopefully my levels are at 0 and hopefully this will be the last of the blood test!! It gets really old.  I didn't realize that it can take so long for everything to get back to normal. I'll give an update as soon as I get the results back. 

I'll leave you with a few pics. Cope is just growing up so fast (he's 21 months) and he is sooo funny. I just laugh at him all the time.

we have to sit on everything while we are naked! this is what he does if we take his diaper off before we go upstairs for a bath :) 

Oliver had to check things out haha

little stinker

sitting in a serving bowl! 

we made rice crispy treats and copeland had a blast with the sticky bowl

"all gone" (he does sign language for a few things) 

Copeland Pics

Copeland playing with his new playdough

Cope in daddy's sweatshirt

Cope in dadd'ys hat and his new house slippers

(shirt and diaper is his favorite outfit these days!)

Helping mommy put away dishes 

Cope LOVES bananas!!! 

Cope and his new guitar t he got for valentines day!! 

this kid loves to play the guitar - (he used to use his little sweeper and

act like it was a guitar)

he didn't put it down all day!

this is what copeland got for valentines day from nanna

we love you nanna!!! thank you for all you do!!

(she was such a great help this past week. I don't know 

what I would have done without her!!!)

It has been a very long week. I want to say thank you to all of those who have been praying for us. It still doesn't seem real... I still think about it everyday and wonder why?? I do not doubt God and his plan for our family, but I do not understand. And that's ok, we don't have to understand right now - or ever! I know that one day, I will hold our little baby in heaven.  Baby Gish is with Jesus and that is the best place baby can be!! 

These versus have brought comfort to be over the last week and I hope they can help others who are going through a  hard time... I also think of Chelsa when reading these verses so girl these are for you!! 

John 16:33 

Jeremiah 31:3

Isaiah 41:10 

sorry I didn't write the verses out.... I'm running short on time 

A Broken Heart - and mixed emotions

This is very hard for me to write about right now, but I know I need to let everyone know that I am miscarrying. I started spotting again Friday night before I went to bed. I told Beau and called my mom, they both told me to just go to bed and see what is going on in the morning. I had been on a progesterone supplement and a side effect of getting off of that is bleeding so we were hoping that is what was going on. Well I woke up Saturday and the spotting/bleeding was progressively getting worse. I knew this couldn't be normal. So about 3:30 I go to the ER - with my friend Kerri, because Beau is still in pain and can't really get around. After a two and a half hour wait, I finally get in and waited about another hour for an ultrasound. Well there was a baby, but no heartbeat. I just broke down. I could see the little punkin, but I knew there was no heartbeat. I know that the Lord knows what he is doing, and this little baby is with Him now, but I just can't seem to understand why. I know this baby will never face any heart ache or never suffer, but I can't help but wish I could have carried and brought this baby into the world and loved it. I literally have a broken heart. Like I said, God has a plan and His plan was for this baby to not be with us. We are going to try to get through the next week or so, and talk about things, and hopefully try again. Thank you for all of your prayers and support during this trying time in our lives. Please keep us in your prayers. I do have a few new pics to post, I'll try to get that done soon.  My mom is on her way out here to help and to go to the doctor with me. Once again, I just keep saying the verse "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11